Pages From My Journalโ€”Coming Septemberโ€™21

An actual entry from my journal (swiped to see typed version) to be included in my debut book-

๐Ÿ“„โ€๐๐š๐ ๐ž๐ฌ ๐…๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐Œ๐ฒ ๐‰๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง๐š๐ฅโ€ ๐Ÿ“„
๐–ฒ๐–พ๐— ๐—๐—ˆ ๐–ป๐–พ ๐—‹๐–พ๐—…๐–พ๐–บ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐–ฒ๐–พ๐—‰๐—๐–พ๐—†๐–ป๐–พ๐—‹ ๐Ÿค๐Ÿข๐Ÿค๐Ÿฃ
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๐–จ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐—๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—ˆ ๐—€๐—‚๐—๐–พ ๐–บ ๐—…๐—‚๐—๐—๐—…๐–พ ๐—€๐—…๐—‚๐—†๐—‰๐—Œ๐–พ ๐—‚๐—‡๐—๐—ˆ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—๐–บ๐—Œ ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—‡๐—Œ๐—Ž๐—†๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐—†๐—Ž๐–ผ๐— ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—…๐–บ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—’.

๐–จ ๐—๐–บ๐—๐–พ ๐–ญ๐–ค๐–ต๐–ค๐–ฑ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—‹๐—„๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—ˆ๐—‡ ๐–บ ๐—‰๐—‹๐—ˆ๐—ƒ๐–พ๐–ผ๐— ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐—๐—‚๐—†๐–พ ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—‡๐—Œ๐—Ž๐—†๐—‚๐—‡๐—€, ๐—‹๐–พ๐—Š๐—Ž๐—‚๐—‹๐–พ๐—Œ ๐—†๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–พ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐–จ ๐—Œ๐—ˆ๐—†๐–พ๐—๐—‚๐—†๐–พ๐—Œ ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—‡ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ๐–ฟ๐–พ๐—‹, ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐—ˆ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐—€๐—‹๐—‚๐–พ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ๐—Œ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐–จโ€™๐—† ๐—‡๐—ˆ๐— ๐—€๐—ˆ๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐—๐—ˆ ๐–ป๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–พ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž ๐—๐—‚๐—๐—.

๐–จ ๐—๐—‚๐—…๐—… ๐—Œ๐–บ๐—’ ๐—๐—i๐—Œ ๐—๐—๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—€๐—, th๐—‹๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—€๐— ๐–บ๐—…๐—… ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—Ž๐—‰๐—Œ ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—๐—‡๐—Œ, ๐—Œ๐—๐—‚๐—…๐—… ๐–จ ๐—€๐–พ๐—‡๐—Ž๐—‚๐—‡๐–พ๐—…๐—’ ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—…๐–ฝ ๐—‡๐—ˆ๐— ๐–ป๐–พ ๐—†๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–พ ๐–พ๐—‘๐–ผ๐—‚๐—๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—ˆ ๐—Œ๐—๐–บ๐—‹๐–พ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–บ๐—…๐—… ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž.

๐–ณ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–ป๐—ˆ๐—ˆ๐—„ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–บ ๐—…๐—‚๐—๐–พ๐—‹๐–บ๐—… ๐—‰๐—‚๐–พ๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—†๐–พ ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐–จ ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—‡โ€™๐— ๐—๐–บ๐—‚๐— ๐–ฟ๐—ˆ๐—‹ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž ๐–บ๐—…๐—… ๐—๐—ˆ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—…๐–ฝ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—‚๐—‡ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—‹ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ๐—Œ.

๐–ฒ๐—๐–บ๐—’ ๐—๐—Ž๐—‡๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐–ฟ๐—‹๐—‚๐–พ๐—‡๐–ฝ๐—Œ.
๐–ณ๐—๐–พ be๐—Œ๐— ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—’๐–พ๐— to ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—†๐–พ โœ๐Ÿพ
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Whatโ€™s meant for you will always find you…

โœจThe universe always knows exactly what she is doing.

โŒIโ€™ve wanted to quit more in the past week, than ever before. Quit therapy, quit writing, just quitโ€ฆ

And then today, I got this message.

You know life is so unpredictable and there are times I think Iโ€™m doing so great and then out of thin air this dark cloud presents itself and itโ€™s always hell to get it to disappear.

Iโ€™ve been wearing my best of smiles lately only to avoid being asked if everything is okay. Something about that damn question that gets me every time. So I just pretend and hope reality catches up

And I usually write to dump out all the feelings because I kinda suck at verbally expressing them but lately I couldnโ€™t even bring myself to do thatโ€ฆ

And then I got this messageโ€ฆ and I just cried quietly to myself.

When something is meant for you, it will always find you.

It will find you in your brightest moments and your darkest corners.

Itโ€™ll celebrate your highest highs, and pick you up during your lowest lowsโ€ฆ
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Thanks B, though you reached out to let me know how Iโ€™ve helped you-you didnโ€™t even realize how much you were helping me. I love you ๐Ÿค
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Just keep swimming friends
Never stop writing โœ๐Ÿพ